i NEED someone to get into, write to every minute and think about every second. so i dont eat. i dont want to eat, i want to remember that, i want to occupy my mind with some nice feeling, like.. liking someone. i cant even get this, why i dont like anyone, why im not interested in anyone, in what they have to say, why i dont care. i WANT to care, to wait unpatiently for some reply text or msg or whatever. i. gotta. not. eat. i gained so much weight everyones actually gossiping about it. and i hate it. fucking loser, to get excited over someone elses body.